Silence is not golden

 

 

"You can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see,

but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel"

~ Johnny Depp

 

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"Wishing you were here, honey"

"You're the reason my heart beats"

"We're going to have an awesome future together"

"Wish I was there helping you. One day that will not be an issue"

"I'm gonna hate my night; I won't have you by my side"

"I will get there for New Year's, no matter what"

"I miss you and need you, baby"
"Thinking of you, baby"

 

 

Do you remember the words you said

from summer, half into December?

 

In the beginning, you told me you trusted too easily

and that you'd been played before

Those words are a little ironic now, don't you think?

 

What were you thinking about me, on December 17th?

And December 20th... 25th... 27th?

Those days I texted you, and received only silence

What about December 31st, when I texted you to tell you Happy New Year?

A day you told me you'd be here with me, 'no matter what'

but you never told me you weren't coming out

you just stopped telling me anything

 

Six more times in January

I tried reaching out to you

six more times, I was met with silence

 

There were only four times, in a month's span

when I'd receive a random text from you

I'd reply, trying to engage you in conversation
but you'd just ignore me again

 

Silence is golden?

My ass.  Silence is pain

Silence is questioning what went wrong

What did I do?  Who are you?

Silence is the absence of closure

 

February 16th, I reached out to you one final time

I knew it was over, even if you never said goodbye

I told you I needed closure

I asked why you just walked away

I asked you to be honest with me

 

And your answer was complete silence

you had gone from loving to stone cold

in the span of a few weeks

I deserved truth, but there was no truth anymore

perhaps, there never was

 

Imagine my shock, and the hurt

when I found out you married in the middle of February

rendering everything you said to me above, a lie

 

I suspect now, you knew her before

and I was just played to try to win her back;

barely two months after you were calling me baby

you are calling her your princess, and the love of your life

perhaps she is, and you finally got what you wanted

 

You just picked one hell of a way to go about getting it.

 

(c) Dahlia Ramone:  May 1, 2016

 

 

 

This was written for Blogophilia

 

Week 11.9 Topic: Silence is Golden

 

Bonus Points:

(Hard, 2 pts): Quote Johnny Depp (There is no truth anymore)

(Easy, 1 pt): Incorporate a medical device (I did not)