Here I Am

 

"From the ashes a fire shall be woken,

a light from the shadows shall spring;

renewed shall be blade that was broken

the crownless shall again be king"

J.R.R. Tolkien (The Fellowship of the Ring)

 

 

Here I am

in the joyous summer

when you discovered me

your words so sweet, they swept me in

as you spoke of our future

and how much you needed me

I believed it all, basking in your romance

and in your arms, I finally felt at home

 

"False hopes are more dangerous than fears"

 

Here I am

in the bleak midwinter

when I discovered you

I learned your truth as your shoulder grew colder

that you past wasn't really in the past

proof of my presence was meant for display

purpose served, I was discarded

as wedding bells rang for you

 

"How do you move on?

You move on when your heart finally understands

that there is no turning back"

 

Here I am

at the edge of spring

trying to find myself again

crawling back from the hell of betrayal

where hope lies in ashes

and empty words weigh me down

 

yet I rise

with a quiet strength I had forgotten 

dusting off your lies and false pretenses

I turn toward the sun, determined

to reclaim the fighter in me

I focus on not looking back

as each step takes me

farther away from you.

 

"I have passed through fire and deep water, since we parted.

I have forgotten much that I thought I knew,

and learned again much that I had forgotten."

 

(c) Dahlia Ramone:  February 28, 2016

 

 

This was written for Blogophilia

 

Week 2.9 Topic:  In the Bleak Midwinter

Bonus Points:

(Hard 2 pts:) Incorporate a Lyle Lovett lyric (Here I Am)

(Easy, 1 pt:) Use a quote from J.R.R. Tolkien (in italics)

 

"False hopes are more dangerous than fears"

J.R.R. Tolkien (The Children of Hurin)

 

"How do you move on? You move on when your heart

Finally understands there is no turning back."

J.R.R. Tolkien

 

"I have passed through fire and deep water, since we parted.

I have forgotten much that I thought I knew,

And learned again much that I had forgotten."

J.R.R. Tolkien (The Lord of the Rings)