Here I Am

 

"From the ashes a fire shall be woken,

a light from the shadows shall spring;

renewed shall be blade that was broken

the crownless shall again be king"

J.R.R. Tolkien (The Fellowship of the Ring)

 

 

Here I am

in the joyous summer

when you discovered me

your words so sweet, they swept me in

as you spoke of our future

and how much you needed me

I believed it all, basking in your romance

and in your arms, I finally felt at home

 

"False hopes are more dangerous than fears"

 

Here I am

in the bleak midwinter

when I discovered you

I learned your truth as your shoulder grew colder

that you past wasn't really in the past

proof of my presence was meant for display

purpose served, I was discarded

as wedding bells rang for you

 

"How do you move on?

You move on when your heart finally understands

that there is no turning back"

 

Here I am

at the edge of spring

trying to find myself again

crawling back from the hell of betrayal

where hope lies in ashes

and empty words weigh me down

 

yet I rise

with a quiet strength I had forgotten 

dusting off your lies and false pretenses

I turn toward the sun, determined

to reclaim the fighter in me

I focus on not looking back

as each step takes me

farther away from you.

 

"I have passed through fire and deep water, since we parted.

I have forgotten much that I thought I knew,

and learned again much that I had forgotten."

 

(c) Dahlia Ramone:  February 28, 2016

 

 

This was written for Blogophilia

 

Week 2.9 Topic:  In the Bleak Midwinter

Bonus Points:

(Hard 2 pts:) Incorporate a Lyle Lovett lyric (Here I Am)

(Easy, 1 pt:) Use a quote from J.R.R. Tolkien (in italics)

 

"False hopes are more dangerous than fears"

J.R.R. Tolkien (The Children of Hurin)

 

"How do you move on? You move on when your heart

Finally understands there is no turning back."

J.R.R. Tolkien

 

"I have passed through fire and deep water, since we parted.

I have forgotten much that I thought I knew,

And learned again much that I had forgotten."

J.R.R. Tolkien (The Lord of the Rings)

 

 

 

 



Crossroads

~ Crossroads ~

 

You left your fingerprints on my soul

the connection, a thousand kisses deep

and I cannot erase the memories

 

because of you, I measured everyone

by how well they thought they knew me

and the results always ended in darkness

 

the night comes on, the moon comes out

and I implore her to show me

the place where I belong

 

She smiles at my confusion

and says everybody knows what they need

once they figure out what 'home' means

 

a person...a place... a sense of familiarity

what puts you at peace

who makes you feel safe?

 

I sift through an avalanche of emotions

and weigh the years gone by

wondering if they've changed anything

 

time can change everything or nothing

but when I close my eyes and think of you

it just feels like going home

 

in my secret life

I am always coming back to you

because you never left my heart

 

we have two choices:

I can leave well enough alone

or you can take this longing

and dance me to the end of love.

 

(c) Dahlia Ramones:  February 21, 2016
 

 

 

This was written for Blogophilia:

 

Week 1.9 Topic:  Two Choices

 

Bonus prompts:

(Hard, 2 pts):  Use three Leonard Cohen Titles*

(Easy, 2 pt):  Incorporate a confession

(you never left my heart)

 

*I used multiple song titles:

Fingerprints

A Thousand Kisses Keep

Memories

Because Of

Always

Darkness

Night Comes On

Show Me The Place

Everybody Knows

Avalanche

It Just Feels

Going Home

In My Secret Life

Coming Back To You

Take This Longing

Dance Me To The End of Love

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Letting Go

 

~ Letting Go ~

 

High on a ledge above the sea, lost in thoughts

balanced on the edge of reality, not the one she sought

she couldn't go back, she had loved for naught

she couldn't go forward, her heart too distraught

 

the awakening came without a sound

a gradual dawning as he stopped coming around

no goodbye offered, no closure found

no anger to carry onto a battleground

 

in limbo on a ledge, and she couldn't understand

how forever turned to never, was that how he planned?

or did she disappoint, were they doomed beforehand?

their time played in an hourglass that ran out of sand

 

words of romance long cut off, only silence in their place

yet she remembered them each time she sought his face

she knew she lost something she could never replace

~ her heart ~ for it still beats for his embrace

 

torn with indecision, she didn't know how to be okay

to see if he was happy, she knew she'd have to stay

but she couldn't continue living in this state of disarray

so she wished him well, let go, and slipped away.

 

(c) Dahlia Ramone: February 7, 2016

 

 

 

This was written for Blogophilia

Week 51.8 topic:  Lost in Seaside Thoughts (I paraphrased it)

Bonus Points:

(Hard, 2 puts): Create a desperate action for your character

(Easy, 1 pt): Mention a Charlton Heaton movie (The Awakening)

 

 

 

 

 



Decimated Daisies

 



"But only in their dreams can men be truly free.

It was always thus and always thus will be"

(Robin Williams)

 

 

~ Decimated Daisies ~

 

Deep in the realm of fairytales

where truth is dreamt and dreams are true

unchained hearts float through the sky

free to love, received in kind

 

suspended in make-believe

we reveled in the fantasy

scripting a life together

you were the pen, I drank your words

 

you painted flowers on my soul

daisies for pureness and light of heart

I would have traded a kingdom

to follow you on paths unknown

 

but fairytales aren't without peril;

our story turned from lush to grey

with the invasion of reality

the pen went dry, the pages bare

 

unchained hearts? a broken dream

echoes in the stillness of your absence

leaving me alone, a soul full of daisies

each with an even number of petals.

 

(c) Dahlia Ramone: February 2, 2016

 

 

 

 

This was written for Blogophilia

Week 50.8 Topic:  Unchained Heart

Bonus Points:

Hard, (2 puts): Use a Robin Williams quote

Easy, 1 pt): Incorporate the words "critic's choice" (I did not)

 

 

 



Intangible

 

 

"I try to remember a kiss

and I get only sorrow

and yesterday's faded away

now there's only tomorrow"

(Psychedelic Furs' lyrics from 'Angels Don't Cry')

 

***

 

~ Intangible ~



I am the night and you are the moon

I always came out for you

but you played to your own tune

 

I engaged the stars to help me see

and searched for a face I once knew

you called on the clouds, to hide from me

 

indigo, midnight, fade to black

my hue deepened by morning's dew

as I realized you weren't coming back

 

early fire, ashes now

we couldn't see it through

perhaps we burned too bright, somehow

 

together forever, that's what we planned

I don't know what was ever true

you didn't leave me anything that I can understand

 

so here we are, tragically strewn

you live in me, and I for you

I am the night and you are the moon.

 

(c) Dahlia Ramones: January 24, 2016

 

 

 

 

This was written for Blogophilia

Week 49.8 Topic:  I am the Night

Bonus Points (Hard, 2 pts): Incorporate a lyric

from the Psychedelic Furs

("you didn't leave me anything that I can understand"

from 'All of This and Nothing'

(Easy, 1 pt): Mention early fires

 

 

 

 

 



Winter's Heart

 



"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe

and leaves before she is left" ~ Marilyn Monroe

 

 

~ Winter's Heart ~

 

 

the starkness of winter

enshrouds a landscape

that knows one season

weighing down a heavy heart

 

perennial dreams lie dormant

waiting for a chance

to break through the staunch silence

that blankets them

so anxious for another chance

so easy to ignore

 

but sometimes, winter never ends

 

and summer was nothing more

than a passage of time

its days inconsequential

because they were numbered
counting down to the moment

they would be swallowed up by winter

 

And what was once called beautiful

Is now discarded

a forward-thinking dream, forgotten

absent a promise of Spring

but a promise, sometimes doesn't mean a thing.

 

 

(c) Dahlia Ramones:  January 22, 2016

 

 

 

 

This was written for Blogophilia  48.8

Topic:  "Starkness of Winter"

Bonus Points (Hard, 2 puts): Include a Marilyn Monroe quote (above poem)

(Easy, 1 pt): Incorporate purgatory (I did not)

 

 

 

 

 



The Absence of Words



 

~ The Absence of Words ~

 

A well-worn path cuts through the night

heart to moon, a love to make right

going nowhere, Hope runs aground

and silence is the only sound

 

A favorite song, clear yet haunting

evokes memories, now taunting

like words without meaning, they drown

and silence is the only sound

 

Don't think of all that could have been

just vow to never try again

for not all things lost can be found

And silence is the only sound

 

A well-worn path cuts through the night

and silence is the only sound.

 

© Dahlia Ramone: January 3, 2016